why i made this blog
in my about page, i expressed my desire to create a space for myself to share my writing, but that's not the whole story. i was inspired by a friend i recently met named puppy. she shared some of her favorite posts from her blog and they made me feel some big feelings to say the least. that is to say, i felt seen. those big feelings got me thinking about something i've struggled with since i started transitioning in 2024.
i have this thing where big feelings, while welcome, are hard to process. i think its the autism mainly. sometimes i avoid stuff i connect with or that i know i would like that makes me feel things. which is silly because i love my feelings and hrt made me so in touch with them in all the ways ive always wanted. so reading puppy's writing gave me big feelings but instead of avoiding it or doing nothing, i wanted to do something. im always looking to change and improve myself in positive ways, so why not start a blog of my own? not just to reply to her writing, but to post my own.
its hard for me to feel ok with being vulnerable in some ways. puppy's writing made me feel vulnerable because i felt seen. feeling seen is sometimes more than i can handle. being perceived has always been difficult for me. a lot of times i can avoid such things. for example maybe a trans creator on youtube who speaks to my experience but makes me feel too much. but puppy is a real person and i dont want to avoid her or her writing. so instead im embracing the vulnerability and putting myself out there in a way i wouldnt had she not shared her writing with me. i really appreciate her giving me this opportunity to change myself for the better. i hope that makes sense.
Puppy's blog - puppynet.work